Ignoring it don't make it go away though, does it? Dunno about you but when I bottle up how I feel about somethin' and don't tell anyone, it ain't long before I explode like a fucking volcano. [ Once upon a time he was the captain of ignoring feelings. For the longest time he pretended he felt nothing but mentor-y feelings for Harry. Being open and honest had paid off in the end - now nothing can get in the way of his and Harry's happiness (for now). He believes it will pay off for Dennis too - at least he hopes - it's just going to take time. ]
If you honestly think I spoke to Joe 'cause I wanted to screw things up between you, you're wrong. I was gonna talk to him on my own, but Harry tagged along 'cause he cares about you too. I wanted to talk some sense into him, make him realize he probably loves you back if he thought about it hard enough - but I flipped as soon as I saw him at that party.
[Explode like a volcano. That's... sort of what happened with his admission to Joe about his feelings. Sure he'd planned to do it the day he did, but with how everything had been going that day, then the present, it came out a lot sooner than he'd wanted, just up and out, because he honestly believed Joe felt the same with everything that went on.
Then instantly realized he was the biggest cock up in the land. He doesn't really comment on that though, just making an almost dismissive sort of sound at it. Just 'yep sure I know that' sort of sound.]
That's not- no, Eggsy I know you didn't do it to mess up nothing. Just with all the shit from me and me lying to him, then Harry and you having a go at him, Joe was pissed.
[And that last bit really hits him. 'I only want you to be happy, bruv'. He wants it too, he wants so utterly and desperately to be happy, completely. To be honest his life is really good here in Eudio, he can't and shouldn't complain, but all this stuff with Joe has made it hard to see all the good lately. As much as he's tried to mask all of his troubles behind that. Drown himself in his work, in his friends and act like nothing is wrong, but now Eggsy knows and it's one less person he can pretend everything is fine with.]
I want that too.
[His voice wavers some.]
Still glad you got my back, you're the best mate I've ever had.
He didn't yell at you, did he? [ He'll be mad all over again if he took his anger out on Dennis. ] He should know you well enough to know you wouldn't send someone to have a go at him. [ It's not in his nature to do something like that. ]
He'll get over it. [ If he hasn't already.
He smiles to himself at the last of what Dennis says. ] You had me worried you were gonna say we're done. [ He sounds relieved. ]
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If you honestly think I spoke to Joe 'cause I wanted to screw things up between you, you're wrong. I was gonna talk to him on my own, but Harry tagged along 'cause he cares about you too. I wanted to talk some sense into him, make him realize he probably loves you back if he thought about it hard enough - but I flipped as soon as I saw him at that party.
I only you want to you to be happy, bruv.
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Then instantly realized he was the biggest cock up in the land. He doesn't really comment on that though, just making an almost dismissive sort of sound at it. Just 'yep sure I know that' sort of sound.]
That's not- no, Eggsy I know you didn't do it to mess up nothing. Just with all the shit from me and me lying to him, then Harry and you having a go at him, Joe was pissed.
[And that last bit really hits him. 'I only want you to be happy, bruv'. He wants it too, he wants so utterly and desperately to be happy, completely. To be honest his life is really good here in Eudio, he can't and shouldn't complain, but all this stuff with Joe has made it hard to see all the good lately. As much as he's tried to mask all of his troubles behind that. Drown himself in his work, in his friends and act like nothing is wrong, but now Eggsy knows and it's one less person he can pretend everything is fine with.]
I want that too.
[His voice wavers some.]
Still glad you got my back, you're the best mate I've ever had.
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He'll get over it. [ If he hasn't already.
He smiles to himself at the last of what Dennis says. ] You had me worried you were gonna say we're done. [ He sounds relieved. ]
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["Okay" on the surface, but they have a lot to work through, still. Things were alright.]
Done?
[Dennis smiles softly, shaking his head.]
Nah, bruv, couldn't quit you.