note says a couple days talked to freddie and he said like five days so dunno which it is im just trying not to overreact but fucking too late for that now i guess
i just wish hed fucking talk to me before he left he was so quiet and didnt wanna talk like i know now it was probably cause of adam leaving but but i hate that he just wont talk to me and leaves me in the dark like that and fucks off
thought we were done with that
[He's not going to touch that bit about deserving better. He doesn't want to get into that.]
im not he does that he gets all quiet and wont talk to me like he thinks i cant handle shit
we werent supposed to be doing that no more thats why shit got bad before when you and harry got involved with things cause we didnt fucking talk like we should im not even realy mad hes gone back home i never expected him to stay here forever been dreading it for so fucking long whether its a couple days or forever
just mad he couldnt tell me to my face im not important enough for that?
freddie said something like that too probably right
dont make anything feel any better it sucks knowing that he cant talk to me or even come say bye cause id hold him back i feel like the biggest selfish prick
i still dont know what the fuck we are we tell each other we love each other but i kno hes still with other people not serious like me or that adam kid but i cnat get pissed cause thats what were here for fucking around and fixing shit back home
or feel like im an asshole if ido get mad that ill push him away dont kno been thinking too damn much i gotta stop that it just makes everything worse
it aint that simple i mean i just get so caught up thinking what if he dont come back evne tho he promised what if i never see him again and i get so fucked up in the head over it
but when im with him everything feels so fucking good eggsy
look i wouldnt hurt myself if thats i wouldnt i promise
[Maybe back home when things were really bad, he'd definitely thought about it, had wanted to do it, but here? He's changed since he's been here, he couldn't do that to himself.]
thanks eggsy really mean it but you better not take a bullet for me thatd be a wicked cool scar okay
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guess the other guy he was really serious with left the city
so thats part of it
just wish he couldve talked to me about it told me he was going
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what did his note say exactly?
maybe it's just me but joe doesn't seem like the type to talk about a lot of things
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[Dennis takes a picture and hits send to Eggsy.]
note says a couple days talked to freddie and he said like five days so dunno which it is
im just trying not to overreact but fucking too late for that now i guess
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that letter is vague as shit
I ain't sayin he ain't coming back but if it turns out he don't then he's a piece of shit after promising you and you deserve better
[ so much shittalk ]
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i just wish hed fucking talk to me before he left he was so quiet and didnt wanna talk like i know now it was probably cause of adam leaving but
but i hate that he just wont talk to me and leaves me in the dark like that and fucks off
thought we were done with that
[He's not going to touch that bit about deserving better. He doesn't want to get into that.]
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last time harry and I did that with joe we were wrong
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he does that he gets all quiet and wont talk to me like he thinks i cant handle shit
we werent supposed to be doing that no more thats why shit got bad before when you and harry got involved with things cause we didnt fucking talk like we should
im not even realy mad hes gone back home
i never expected him to stay here forever been dreading it for so fucking long whether its a couple days or forever
just mad he couldnt tell me to my face im not important enough for that?
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probably right
dont make anything feel any better
it sucks knowing that he cant talk to me or even come say bye cause id hold him back
i feel like the biggest selfish prick
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we aint even
i still dont know what the fuck we are
we tell each other we love each other but i kno hes still with other people not serious like me or that adam kid
but i cnat get pissed cause thats what were here for fucking around and fixing shit back home
or feel like im an asshole if ido get mad that ill push him away
dont kno been thinking too damn much
i gotta stop that it just makes everything worse
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but if you're looking for someone who will then maybe he ain't right for you
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people ask and i dont know what to tell them
and it just hits me that i dont know i really dont
we love each other but we aint a couple or whatever sounds real fucking cute
tried explaining it to bliss and she just felt sorry for me
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relationships are complicated
she probably just wants you to be happy but you obviously ain't right now
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i mean i just get so caught up thinking what if he dont come back evne tho he promised
what if i never see him again and i get so fucked up in the head over it
but when im with him everything feels so fucking good eggsy
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but you've gotta learn how to be without him and be okay
he can't be the reason you wake up in the morning. it ain't healthy
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i know i know i really do
im sorry i always come to you about this shit
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I'm always here for you
I'd taking a fuckin bullet for you y'know
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i wouldnt i promise
[Maybe back home when things were really bad, he'd definitely thought about it, had wanted to do it, but here? He's changed since he's been here, he couldn't do that to himself.]
thanks eggsy really mean it
but you better not take a bullet for me thatd be a wicked cool scar okay