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[agoodsoul]

i know i get it
but just if you need to takl about it or anything just you know aint going no where

[He would have kept on about it, but he gets it. He felt the same about Joe and Adam before... Adam apparently left the city, but he loved Joe so goddamn much he couldn't give what they had up because he'd also been with another person. Well. Been with another person as close as he was with him. Also just the nature of the city and... things.]

im at joes if you wanna come over but we cant make a mess okay?

[eggcel]

he let you stay at his place while he's away?

please tell me you ain't been sniffing his underwear in his absence

[agoodsoul]

i kinda let myself in
was worried when i couldnt contact him he was real quiet and weird before he left
but didnt tell me he was going

found a note for me at his place

fuck off

[He has been sleeping in Joe's bed though. Hugging a pillow... it smells like Joe okay. Shut up. Don't. Just. Don't judge him please, Eggsy.]

[eggcel]

you must have been nosing around his shit though

[ Eggsy will if he comes over. Look for anything incriminating... Force of habit from being a Kingsman. ]

[agoodsoul]

not really just trying to figure out why he left
guess the other guy he was really serious with left the city
so thats part of it

just wish he couldve talked to me about it told me he was going

[eggcel]

that guy adam? could be part of it but can't be the whole story

what did his note say exactly?

maybe it's just me but joe doesn't seem like the type to talk about a lot of things

[agoodsoul]

yeah that guy part of me is glad but then i know thats fucking shitty of me

[Dennis takes a picture and hits send to Eggsy.]

note says a couple days talked to freddie and he said like five days so dunno which it is
im just trying not to overreact but fucking too late for that now i guess

[eggcel]

part of me would be glad if edward left... guess that makes me shitty too

that letter is vague as shit

I ain't sayin he ain't coming back but if it turns out he don't then he's a piece of shit after promising you and you deserve better

[ so much shittalk ]

[agoodsoul]

just makes you human

i just wish hed fucking talk to me before he left he was so quiet and didnt wanna talk like i know now it was probably cause of adam leaving but
but i hate that he just wont talk to me and leaves me in the dark like that and fucks off

thought we were done with that

[He's not going to touch that bit about deserving better. He doesn't want to get into that.]

[eggcel]

probably not a good idea to jump to conclusions

last time harry and I did that with joe we were wrong

[agoodsoul]

im not
he does that he gets all quiet and wont talk to me like he thinks i cant handle shit

we werent supposed to be doing that no more thats why shit got bad before when you and harry got involved with things cause we didnt fucking talk like we should
im not even realy mad hes gone back home
i never expected him to stay here forever been dreading it for so fucking long whether its a couple days or forever

just mad he couldnt tell me to my face im not important enough for that?

[eggcel]

he'd probably argue that if he'd said goodbye to your face he wouldn't have managed to leave

[agoodsoul]

freddie said something like that too
probably right

dont make anything feel any better
it sucks knowing that he cant talk to me or even come say bye cause id hold him back
i feel like the biggest selfish prick

[eggcel]

why do you feel like a selfish prick? he's the one who left without saying goodbye to your face

[agoodsoul]

cause i expect so much from him
we aint even

i still dont know what the fuck we are
we tell each other we love each other but i kno hes still with other people not serious like me or that adam kid
but i cnat get pissed cause thats what were here for fucking around and fixing shit back home

or feel like im an asshole if ido get mad that ill push him away
dont kno been thinking too damn much
i gotta stop that it just makes everything worse

[eggcel]

you don't have to put a label on it

but if you're looking for someone who will then maybe he ain't right for you

[agoodsoul]

no its
people ask and i dont know what to tell them

and it just hits me that i dont know i really dont
we love each other but we aint a couple or whatever sounds real fucking cute

tried explaining it to bliss and she just felt sorry for me

[eggcel]

you want something cute and simple to tell people about?

relationships are complicated

she probably just wants you to be happy but you obviously ain't right now

[agoodsoul]

it aint that simple
i mean i just get so caught up thinking what if he dont come back evne tho he promised
what if i never see him again and i get so fucked up in the head over it

but when im with him everything feels so fucking good eggsy

[eggcel]

I'm sure it does

but you've gotta learn how to be without him and be okay

he can't be the reason you wake up in the morning. it ain't healthy

[agoodsoul]

i know
i know i know i really do

im sorry i always come to you about this shit

[eggcel]

rather you vent than bottle shit up and do something stupid to yourself

I'm always here for you

I'd taking a fuckin bullet for you y'know

[agoodsoul]

look i wouldnt hurt myself if thats
i wouldnt i promise

[Maybe back home when things were really bad, he'd definitely thought about it, had wanted to do it, but here? He's changed since he's been here, he couldn't do that to himself.]

thanks eggsy really mean it
but you better not take a bullet for me thatd be a wicked cool scar okay